I’m 16 years old..
My Girlfriend was beautiful. All the boys were after her, she was such an individual and so confident.
She was literally always laughing and smiling, brightening everyones day up.
All my friends would say she was ‘hot’, but I could see so much beyond just that.
So we started going out, and even though I loved her and had a great time with her (we had stuff in common, a love of rock music and playing guitar and much more) It wasn’t long before the cracks of this ‘perfect’ girl began to show.
She had an adddiction and an obsession with her apperaence I soon found out.
She never left the house or let me saw her without make up, although I told her she’d look even more beautiful without it. When we were out she’s have to check the mirror alot, and eventually she came out to me as having a form of OCD with her apperaence, which I accepted.
The worst part was the addiction to bleaching her hair. I hated it as I could see her hair’s condition was getting wrecked. I told her not to but still she would.
It all got too much for her, she wrote in er suicide note ‘It was a vicious circle; I couldn’t not bleach my hair as I am so convinced I look horrible with any other colour than peroxide blonde, but the bleach has wrecked the condition and the more i bleach it, the worse the condition will be.’
She wrote in the note she loved me more than anyone else and I was her only love. And that she felt so guilty seeing me as she was not good enough for me.
I can’t cope with this!
Is there anything I should’ve done?! I did the usual, told anyone I could who I thought could help, but I had NO IDEA she was going to kill herself